You’ve probably noticed I’ve been a bit absent around here over the last few months or maybe you haven’t noticed at all, but it’s cool. All I know is that I’ve been absent from myself. I’m not okay, but that’s okay.
Thank you for Lizzie for taking this photo for me!
I’m going to be that annoying person that doesn’t talk about what’s going on in my personal life, purely because I’m just not ready to talk about it, but to say it’s taken over my life is an understatement. It’s completely engulf me. It’s taken away all of my creativity, passion and drive for blogging and painting. This doesn’t sound like such a big deal, but when it’s your escape from tough times and real life, it’s a big escape mechanism that has been pulled from under your feet.
I somehow muster the energy together to cook myself dinner every night, then I climb into bed and watch mindless TV or YouTube videos and then fall asleep.
I feel like a Zombie and Zombies can’t write blog posts.
But you know what? That’s totally okay and I’m not going to fall into the trap of apologizing for my lack of content during a tough time. We’ve all been there and what we need more than anything is to know that it really is okay to not be okay. It just feels frustrating that I can’t really do anything but let time do it’s thing and let myself heal and process events…however long that takes or however many pretty new clothes I have to buy to fill the void for awhile…
I did however want to share a few positive things I’ve been enjoying recently.
Despite the negative things going on in my private life, I’ve also had some positive changes in my job. I’ve had a change in job role, which is keeping me very busy and it’ll hopefully mean big things for my career over the next couple of years! It’s been something I’ve wanted for awhile now and taking on new challenges is exciting. We also had a ‘puppy day’ at work this Friday to help relieve the stress of the team but also to help socialise the puppies! It really was as amazing as it sounds having 8 Labrador puppies to play with at work, I just wish we could have them all the time but lets be real, no work would ever get done!
Besides new work things, I’ve been enjoying buying a few little pieces for my wardrobe. With joining Slimming World and taking the plunge to finally lose the weight I’ve been struggling to shift for the past couple of years, I’ve treated myself to a few little updates to my wardrobe. I’ve finally picked up a pair of classic old skool Vans that I’ve wanted since forever, a new pair of distressed jeans and a couple of coloured t-shirts. It’s my new favourite outfit which can be seen at the top of this post!
I know that things will eventually pass and I’ll come back to life eventually. But right now I’m struggling to keep on top of life, feelings and all creative outlets but that’s okay. I’m just really hoping to get back my blogging mojo soon, in the meantime I’ll just have to watch Friends again for the 800th time.
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